It's been 2 weeks since the birth of my little darling, Aloysius Joshua Tan. During this 2 weeks, my mood been fluctuating up n down.. First, he's been warded 2 days in KKH due to jaundice n till now it still haven't gone away. Now we are doing trying all sorts of method juz to "cure" it. =( secondly, it my confinement n lastly, milk supply.

With him having jaundice, I am so stress up n I cant stop thinking whether does he drink enough n do I have enough supply to supply him. My worse nightmare came true.. I realized my supply seem to be dropping but my baby is drinking more.. I am so worried n tense up.. I'm trying not to give him fm but my supply is not enough, what should I do? I am extremely upset. Plus his jaundice condition, I think I'm breaking down..

I never share this with my hubby because I know how he want me to be happy n not tense up over this. But seriously, I can't help especially when I feel that my baby is not drinking enough..

Am so lost n disappointed in myself..