horible...

my weekend was horrible...

1st: something happen to the dearest ppl in my life...
2nd: i cried myself to sleep on sat nite..

I felt so unjustified, angry, misunderstood , miserable and being wrongly accused...

i'm a sis but i'm also a woman.. and i love both of them and i want them to be happy too..

am i reali wrong in my actions? i'm starting to doubt my actions.. mayb i shouldn't tell and the problem wouldn't be as big as now... i know he's blaming me for it.. but what fault do i have when i didn't make up any story but only the truth?? people blame people when they make mistakes or did something wrong.. what about the nice things that i had helped them before? doesn't it mean anything at all?

at the end of the day i still want them to have the best and to be happy without any doubts or worries...

however i'm glad cos i realized no matter what zhen and my BO will always be beside me... zhen is my most treasured and dearest frd to me.. i can always rely on her cos she truly understand me and i thank whoever for letting me get to know her and eventually become frd till now...

what we wants...

what a girl want from guys:

- love
- care
- concern
- understanding
- spending quality time together
- making initiative
- surprises
- prefer the guy to know what she wants by picking up hints
- sensitivity
- romance
- sweet to both her frds and family
- be her punching bag when she's unhappy without complaining
- listen to all her "stories" and must seem interested
- say sorry even when she's in the wrong
- treat her like a princess
- hug and kiss whenever possible
- hold her hand when she's afraid
- say i love you whenever you can when you feel like it and mean it pls


what a guy want from girls;

- love
- care
- concern
- lots of understanding
- don't expect too much (surprises)
- tell them exactly what you want and don't make them guess
- not too sensitive but must be
- give him 'face' (anything go home and talk)
- sweet
- cannot be jealous when he's good to his female frds (cos they are just frd)
- cannot be demanding


Nevertheless.....

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn
how to love an imperfect person perfectly....

excited..

16 more days to our day...

i'm so excited!

I can't wait to see the look on his face when i give him the present that i prepare for him (even though it's not completed yet), wondering what's the present that he prepare for me, where will he bring me to for dinner and the after dinner-programme plan by me...

i just can't wait....

his 1st bday with me..

HIS B'DAY!! =)

i never really prepared much for him moreover this is his first bday spent with me... feeling guilty cos he planned a very nice bday for me... =( first of all, i didn't know what to buy for him, have a couple of ideas but don't know what should i get.. went round asking his friends but in the end i bought something else for him.. a N95 and he gotten his bday present even before his bday! so on the day itself i have to plan something else for him so that he will be surprise! (headache)




On our way....

So i decided to bring him to my secret garden which i promise =)

His bday menu:




coffee ( he love it cos it's thick enough)






Assorted mushroom pastry (it's sOOoo goOOd!)




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Crayfish spaghetti in tomato sauce

(it's not really tomato sauce taste more like some thai sauce, he love the sauce so much and even asked me to go to the kitchen and ask how they coOk it so i can cook for him =P )




Spicy prawn and scallop in tomato sauce



Tiramisu (surprise!) also his bday cake =)



secret kiwi and passion fruit ( he find it too sweet =( )



SurpRise 1:


i gave him a little box and asked him to bring it on the actual day......



SurpRise 2:


tiramisu!! he didn't know i secretly reserve a cake for him cos when we are deciding what to eat i keep on saying i want desert so i told him i walking over to the counter to have a look and at the same time he was also allow to open up the box......

so while he was opening the box and playing with it, i walk up to him with the cake and wish him happy birthday!





SurpRise 3:


a mysterious present that is suppose to be given only when we reach the last place but he discover it.... =( (it's either his eyes too sharp or i'm just too dumb)

Some shots taken by the staff =)

After dinner we head straight to The cookies museum use to be called The V-Tea room.. as usual a quiche for him and a liqueur cake for me! =)

Simply love the decor of the cafe..... (*-*)/

Went for a walk down esplanade and realize it's been quite some time since we took a walk like this.. =)



Home sweet home after that... that's all for his bday.... as compared to the one he plan for me i feel so guilty.... nevertheless i still feed him till he's bloated... =D

sweets...

Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things; believes all things; hopes all things; endures all things.

came across this on the internet, found it so meaningful and i decided to leave it permanently in my blog and share it with my dearest one....

dream dream dream...

had a bad dream last night... it's the second or third time that i dream of such things...


in my previous dream, i threw one person down from 5th floor at my old place and after that i ran downstairs to check if anybody saw it (ridiculous isn't it?) and last night, it the same thing again, the setting is somewhere i had never been to and this time round i not just throw one person down but many! leaving only the youngest baby boy... a man that appeared in my dream said to me that he's not going to report me cos he leaving me give birth to more children.. and i replied saying that he had done more sin than me... and i woke up...


i wonder does this dream means anything at all... is it trying to say anything to me.. or maybe i just think too much.. but it's horrible..

busy busy busy...

been so busy with my school work that i hardly get to sleep for more than 5hrs for the past weeks... even sat and sun.. damn horrible... i simply don't understand the reason why are we given so many assignment and the submission date are so close to one another.. when we ask for extension, the lecturer will say if you change the submission date then you will not be able to complete the other one... what the hell right! hardly even complete one, here comes another.. and the assignment are all essays and you need to do research! and Oh yA, we have lesson 3-4 times a week, if it happens to be 2 times a week then the 2-3 next week will be 4/week...


The other one is the attachment, it's not that i mind the attachment, (i enjoyed it) but hello~ we are all working adults! the reason why we are here for part time is b'cos we cannot commit to full time! No doubt taking on the course will cause us our sleep and time, but not the fact that it's going to affect our work! it's 7days! and we have 1 attachment every semester, the last attachment will be 14days! what if we really cannot go for the attachment? are we going to fail that module???


i need to have time for friends, family (even if it just sitting there watching tv show but now i don't get a chance to) and my bf.. he's the most poor thing... send me to school, wait there for 3 hrs only to send me back home then he head home again yet he never complaint.. even sometimes sat and sun i need to meet up for some project discussion he will send me there ,go nearby take a walk then come back and pick me up again... if not when i'm doing assignment at his place, he will cook whatever i want to eat while i'm do my assignment.... it's been awhile since i last cooked for him, i feel so guilty..


it's only been like 6mths since i started on my part time course, but i really feel so tired, especially rushing out the assignment... feel like hibernating for one season before it start all over again....