attended a good friend wedding over the weekend, it's so lovely and beautiful and it reminds me of my own wedding..

However, something unpleasant happened.. He gave flying kisses to 2 girls that he just know on the day itself, the worse thing is he was sober not drunk, and we are together in the lift with the wedding couple and their family members..


Yes, he told me he is just teasing and playing, he never thought of any other things. And the fact that he told me after awhile proves that it is nothing.


My thoughts, if he can do this infront of me, who knows what he do behind my back. What if i do the same thing? how will he react? There was once when i told him i tripped outside zouk and he gave me a black face. He told me there could be many possibilities of why i tripped.. Even a simple incident could lead to so many possibilities not to say his flying kisses!

He was very apologetic and told me that he never thought of the consequences. I was really very upset and disappointed. Dated for 4 years, married for 7 months and even now pregnant with kid, yet he doesn't know what are the things that i can accept and not accept. But yet he can expect me not to do this and not to do that. Who knows his definitions of "just being playful and teasing"?

This pregnancy hasn't been easy for me, the first 3 months was so terrible. With the pain, cramps, headache and morning sickness, i couldn't help but feel negative towards the whole pregnancy. It was only in my 4th month when i start to feel slightly better. I was afraid of being ugly, turning into an auntie and worse thing is what if i can't lose all the fats gained during my pregnancy? Ultimate negativeness...

The incident of the flying kisses make me feel even more negative and i can't help but losing faith, confidence and trust in him and our marriage. Especially he mention those girls are not bad. Jealously? i don't know, but my heart certainly doesn't feel good. Even though, he told me that he will prove it to me through actions and that time will tell that he has always been telling the truth. He keep saying that he truly love me , but at this moment, my heart aches and my mind went wild whenever i think of what happen that day and his explanation of being playful and never thought of the consequences...

i just don't want to end up with a broken heart again...

"Ouch!! you hit me on my tummy!!!"

"i don't want to sleep next to you anymore, i'm going to sleep on the mattress!"

"Baby, where got husband and wife sleep separately?"

"I don't care, I don't want to sleep next to you anymore!"

Next morning, i woke up with the fan on, bloster, blanket next to me..

Sweetness~~~~~

6 months into my marriage, 4 months into my pregnancy, 2 months to owning a house and starting a family of my own.. From bf to hubby, from miss to mrs and now to mummy. This is how fast time flies..

Our wedding was held on the 3rd October 2010 at GoodWood park hotel. Looking back at how we met, our courtship days, our phonecalls & dates that we hope it never ends.. arguements, fights and making up.. 3 years 11mths.. and now we are stepping into another phase of our life. ~Marriage~




Our wedding was filled with fun, laughter and some tears. Tears of happiness.. I remembered how my mum teared when she was covering me with the veil. That moment. How my dad said to my mum asking her not to cry and that it's a happy occasion. The huge smile on my dad's face, the tears on my mum's face, their little princess has grown up and that she's leaving her nest that she had been with for the past 24yrs and moving on with her life with her soulmate.



My eldest brother, whose face was also beaming with joy. I simply can't forget the look on his face and the comment that he make when he saw his little sister all dolled up ready for her big day. 你看， 明慧今天很美喔！ 很像公主！真的很像公主！ He behaved as though i'm his daughter that is going to be married. =) My second elder brother, even though he did not say much, but i know he's feeling really happy n busy because he's snapping pictures all the way as my mum keep saying 来跟妹妹拍照！来帮妹妹拍照！ =)




My husband, who teared while reading his vow to me, silly him.. but i feel so touched.. the games that my sisters played on him, poor him, but i do have fun while watching the playback on the video. Haha.



This is my family. There are many ups and downs. But i am happy and thankful for everything.

At the same time, not forgetting my dear friends. Especially my dearest friend since secondary, Huizhen, who is there with me the whole day. Even during my pre-wedding photoshoot. My relatives, classmates, my ex-coll, whom i know attended my wedding and given me n my partner their most sincere wishes. I am reali indeed love by many.



I may not have alot of friends, but those i know, i know for sure they will be there with me throughout my life..




Celeste, Huizhen, who cheer me up and listen to me when i am down..
Caroline, for the many many hand-made cards.. showered with love..
Jean, who specially bake an oreo cheesecake during my bday.. sweetness~
My Family, who do little things that i know they love and care for me...
Adrian, my partner, my soulmate, who showered me with endless tender love, care and putting efforts in trying to be his best.


Thank you for everything.. =)

Wedding ~ take 1 year to plan ~ 1 day event ~ result ~ bountiful of blessings, love, fun and tears.

When you are married, no matter how far you get in life, you need to pull each other along. You may become the CEO of some company while your wife stays home to be a full time homemaker. Regardless, you need to involve each other in your life. Talk about work, about what happens around you. Let your partner into your life. Let them know what is in your life. Take interest in what your partner is doing. If not, the wall between you will just grow and grow, and eventually completely isolate you from each other.

something to ponder on.....

it's been a long time since i last cried at work..

today i just did again..

cos i called someone up to remind him to place his decal on his vehicle and tat cb fucker not happy and started scolding me "fuck you, what kind of rule is that, i want my privacy! is that all you wan to say! fuck you!" nbz.. ccb..

was shock and caught by surprise cos it was basically nothing at all... i was absouletly polite to him and i even apologize to him for disturbing him, and this was wat i get.. wtf

call him if you want to help me to scold him.. Lim @ 97302049... ya i don't care... juz call if u want i don't give a fucking damn abt it... tat stupid fucker..

aNgeLiA ™ “ When the going gets tough, the tough hang in there!” says:
do u wan to pick me up or u wan me to meet u at tpy?
aNgeLiA ™ “ When the going gets tough, the tough hang in there!” says:
lorong 7 straight
aNgeLiA ™ “ When the going gets tough, the tough hang in there!” says:
den tmr u pick me up?

m@DmONk says:
today i pick u up then we go dinner, then i send u home..
m@DmONk says:
tomorrow i also pick u up... i wanna pick u up everyday if i can...


*sweet*

it's this kind of thots and actions that touches me and make my day a better one.. =)

Heard over class 95fm that there a was fund raising drive over the weekend for a girl, Charmine. Apparently, this girl is down with 4th stage neuroblastoma and with a survival rate of only 10%. When we first heard the news, my boyfriend first comment was, "there are so many cancer patients out there, y only her?" i replied, "maybe she came from a single-parent family, and who knows, the mother herself is also down with some illness or really poor family background."

When i reach office, i went to find out more about this child to find out what is so different about her that everyone are trying to raise funds for her. Shame on me for not reading the news.

Cynthia (Charmaine's mother)'s husband had divorce her over a sms (what a coward!!) and she's now left on her own to tend to her 2 children. Thank God that her boy is healthy. This girl, Charmaine, (i shouldn't use the word poor, cos she is rich with all the love and concern from millions of people and even strangers), is down with 4th stage neuroblastoma and with a survival rate of only 10%! According to wikipedia, Neuroblastoma is the most common extracranial solid cancer in childhood and the most common cancer in infancy, with an annual incidence of about 650 new cases per year in the US. Close to 50 percent of neuroblastoma cases occur in children younger than two years old.It is a neuroendocrine tumor, arising from any neural crest element of the sympathetic nervous system or SNS. Neuroblastoma is a solid tumor that most frequently originates in one of the adrenal glands, but can also develop in nerve tissues in the neck, chest, abdomen, or pelvis.


In order to save her daughter, the only way is to send her to New York for treatment, at a initial payment of US$350,000! Additional payments will be require for all her scans and hospitalization bills. What about her family expenses? especially with her not working, giving full attention to her dear girl, where is she going to find so much money? OMG, this is a huge sum of $ which many people are not able to come up with! BUT, Cynthia need it asap to save her daughter. what can be more worse then hearing your own child is down with a deadly form of cancer? I teared. I feel so sad. Not just Charmaine, but her mother as well. I believe any one with a heart will feel this way.

My boyfriend told me, " such is life."

Another friend of mine told me, "at least she is savvy enough to find ways to raise funds for her child, but what about those poor people in other countries? they can only wait and die. It's very depressing. Life is fragile."

Yes. It is. Life is not only fragile but also short. Cherish your love ones, put your money and time in good use. You never know what is going to happen next.


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