if onli..

had a talk about his past relationship and what happen... i know it will make me feel uncomfortable but i still ask about it.. silly me right?? serves me right for feeling the way that i am feeling now... i ask for it...

long story... i feel like a replacement... also don't know how to put it... my heart just feel uncomfortable... maybe i feel that at that point of time i was being compared and i don't like that feeling... if he's really comparing and i'm the one chosen should i be happy or should i not? if he never compare then i so stupid...

man only ask the women past relationship before they start and stop when they are in a relationship cos to them only the future matters... but women ask before they start and even when they are in the relationship.. not just once but many many times.... strange... maybe not all but i certainly belong to this category...

i think it's cos i want to hear the differences between me and the previous and that i'm better and far more superior than them... especially when the complements come without you asking...that feeling is even more shiok... come on all women think their guy previous women are heart breakers... likewise the man feel the same way too.. just admit it..

all people likes to listen to good thing.. this fact will never ever change...

i wish i can stop asking... i think i can do it... but give me abit more time.. i'm sure i can.. when i have more confidence in myself and higher self esteem...

love to dream!

dreams! my dreams is to travel to greeCE, holland, parague, japan, shanghai, europe, egypt..... there's so many so many places that i would like to visit but my B.O say start with the nearest one first.... thailand... =( (but still it's good cos i love beaches, sunset, peace and most importantly he's there with me!!)

there are so many things that i wish and want to do but somehow it's more like a dream.. cos i know it will not happen... first of all.. i'm not a rich kid who parents are directors of MNCs or developers of something exotic selling all over the world and earning tons and tons of money.... i depend on myself (which i feel proud of, but sometimes i do wish...) ... secondly, i do not earn few hundred thousands monthly... and to be logical, i need tons of $$ to fulfill my dream of traveling to those places and staying there for months... hai.....

however, it's because my salary is only that bit and when i bought something that i been wishing for i will be especially happy and i also feel a sense of achievement cos i bought myself without asking from anyone... therefore every thing that i buy means a lot to me...

anyway... i still like to dream, whether it is realistic or not... i love to dream....

when love...

每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心向着你前进
爱情越单纯越着迷... ...

当爱情让人失去自我, 失去理智, 让自己不再是自己时,
那只是用情之深... ...

在爱情的世界里没对或错
感情一旦变质就只能等待结束
执着只会把自己伤得遍体鳞伤 ,体无完肤
与其让自己痛不堪言倒不如开心的度过每一天... ...

不是每段爱情都有美丽的结局
不是每段爱情都会天长地久
单每段爱情都是深深烙印在心里永远刻骨铭心... ...

偶尔事情总会有例外
积极的过自己想要的生活才是对自己最好的生活方式... ...

his fishing trip

went fishing with B.O. and his friends overnight on sat till sunday morning on a boat...

as usual, i play games, chit chat with them, listen to my mp3, eat , take pictures and sleep... that's normally what i do when i go fishing with them.. i will seldom fish, in fact most of the time i never.. firstly, i scare i damage his rod, secondly, i a bit "si ba" i donnoe when is the fish biting the bait and the waiting time (cos u never when will the fish get "excited" about ur bait)... and lastly i feel like sleeping most of the time... (can you imagine the boat is rocking, rocking and rocking, it just get you in the mood) haha

of cos it another form of relaxation... but it's just kinda boring especially when i don't know what are they talking about (they communicate in hokkien), i understand abit here and there but somehow when they get abit too chim and when the topic start to surround about fishing.. i'm lost.. and to make things worse, i'm the only girl there, no one to talk to me about "girls stuff", so usually i just sleep.. either that or take pic... B.O. will be too occupy with fishing and concentrating... i don't mind going cos i can get to see my B.O and spend time with him plus to see the scenery and their catch... but somehow 'cos his time will be on fishing (which should be) i feel abit bored and secretly wish that he will be interested in the photos take i taken or whatever i doing... anyway i guess i'm the only one that is interested in the photos....

our 1st anniversary..

celebrated our anniversary on 31st oct 07..

been waiting for this day , not because of anything but just want to see his expression when he see my present to him...

i left office at 530pm sharp and my sweet love is already here to pick me up... =D (not 'cos i'm lazy but i just can't wait and i tink my love feel the same too! but no choice i still got to work.. =( )

finally he told me where we are going for dinner.. .villa bali @ gillman village!!

We reach there pretty early (it's like less then 20mins drive to there from my work place) so i decided to pass him his present in the car itself.. =)
I watch him as he remove the wrapper carefully.. when he saw the present, there was a wide smile on his face ( he told me he almost cry cos he was very touched.. wAhaha)

and it was my turn to open up his present for me... keke it's a mug with our pictures n his words! so sweet of him.. never thought that he will do such thing for me cos he like too "da nan ren"

my present for him



his present for me

after that we walk around the place enjoying the peacefulness and thinking where to sit.. haha..

we finally decided where to sit and we took a long time to decide what to eat... after some time we finally decided on....

the food -------> YuMMMy!! simple love the glutinous rice! the smell and the taste! gOOOd! but my BO say Thailand's one is even better... (nvm we get to taste in at the end of the yr, YiPpeE!!)

over the meal we talked about how we met, how we felt... feeling so sweet.. right to my heart..
the ambiance was nice and romantic, feel like being surrounded by nature.. not much people there also and i like the quietness.. it's as though he booked the whole place and there's only the two of us.. =)

After dinNer, we went to nOrth bOrder at rochester park... suppose to go one rochester but it's closed for private events.. =(

'cos we don't really know the way there, we make use of ......

the gadgets that took us to our destination.. keke

and realized how near these 2 places are... haha

@ north border, (we are still full from the previous meal) we ordered,


mostly mushroom

my cOcktAil

hIs bEer

thE sIDe dIsh that's with tHe bEeR..

a nice and cosy place... even have "live" music... both of us enjoyed the music.. the ambiance was great.. we had fun discussing about everything! from his friends to what have we been doing for the past year.. after our drinks, we went for a walk around the place with a representative from the restaurant.. he brought us round the place and there's a shop besides the bar counter selling all sorts of thing (keke) and there's also a private event going on at the 2nd storey of North Border but being nice, he open the door and let us have a look... there's a nice fire place and the layout of the room is simply simple and cosy.. =) i love it!


his devilish lOOk =)

trying to look evil but fail.... =(

@ the swing..

@ entrance of north border

it's been a year that we met, many things happened, both good and bad.... we worked it through and i'm glad that he never gave up.. he give in a lot to me, try to spent every moment of his time with me, always letting me know his schedule so i know, respecting me in every single way, treating me like a princess, cooks for me.... he may do things that irritates me at certain times but he also do things that melt my heart.. i do things that annoys him like hell but i also do things that make him smile... i guess that's just parts and parcel of being in a relationship.. i love the way he smile when i did something that touches his heart and the look of his face when he wake up (so blur and cute) i love his madness (that either make me laugh like crazy or make me mad), love his hugs , kisses and his efforts to communicate with my parents... every moment spend together, we will have a little small new discovery about each other.... which means that if you notice, there will always be something new about your partner.. the changes in your partner is not overnight and when you never notice it most probably is you never really notice your partner or there's no communication that's all...

Happy Anniversary my dear...
this is the first and many more to come.... =)

hates..

things i hate:

- being wrongly accuse ( sometimes i may keep quiet doesn't mean that you people are rite)
- being reprimand after telling what got me upset
- being left alone at home
- irresponsible
- flirt
- inconsiderate people
- rude and no manners
- people who simple wont listen
- people who don't give respect yet they want others to do it
- people who never get their facts right and start reprimanding me for nothing
- people who misunderstood me
- people who know my habit/behavior yet still reprimand me
- people who reprimand/scold /blame me even when i'm feeling upset
- people who cannot put themself in my shoe
- people who don't appreciate my efforts
- people who can't feel how i feel ( i understand people react differently, but can't they agree with me at those times when i'm upset)
- people who think they are right all the times
- people who never make any effort to understand my point
- people who break promises
- people who do things and remind of things that i never wish to remember
- people who done all the above mentioned......