was disappointed when i couldn't do it the way that i always want to... a reception at four season windows east room on the Twentieth floor or cocktail by the poolside...

beautiful!! isn't it??? i love this sooo much... ... that's what i always wanted... just a event with my love ones... signing on the document with all my precious witnessing the most important day of my life.. the people that i value most... but i can't do it... bao bei and family insist on a banquet.. where there will be strangers and people that i simply detest and yet i have to smile and treat them like i'm oh so close to you... oh gosh! i hate to put on a mask.... especially not on my wedding day!!

still remembered what his mum say... "bu san bu si".. i was so mad but just smile it off... imagine my dream wedding is being commented till "yi wen bu zi"... i feel so mad and feel like crying...

somehow i feel that i have no choice in this... there's no longer room for negotiation when it's being put off so negatively... just no no and more Nos.... so i have no choice but to agree on having a banquet... there's no room for compromise too especially when there's only one choice... banquet... i'm reali not alright.. i'm reali not happy... i don't even feel like getting married now... but still.. i am excited... excited about the PS and how my gown will be like... i am still excited

darling love fullerton, hence should be holding it there, but when he told his parents...... *negative comments again*

i hate this... seem like everywhere also can't .... can i just heck care about the whole and don't get married???

i'm getting so frustrated and mad and impatience..