i thank god for you..

and friends who listen to me..

thank you...

i woke up with my precious besides me...

he said to me;

"as i was checking my emails, i look to the side and saw you sleeping, realization hits upon me that i can never live without you.. i love you so much.. i will always be beside you, taking care of you, loving you, protecting you, be there for you... "


i felt the same way too..

the night before, i was crying so hard... i wanted to cry out loud... my heart hurts and it was painful.... yet i stop myself as i know he felt bad... i shouldn't had cried.. but it's just so painful when you think about it.. tears just roll down uncontrollably... in his arms, he didn't say anything.. he don't know what to say.. he hug me and say, "no matter what i will always be here and i'm sorry for being useless"


... he never was and never will.. i guess.. it's just not the right time...

i didn't say anything to make him feel better, or infact, i don't feel like saying anything... it's onli me, me and me at that time.. i can't think of anything at that moment... selfish? yes, i am.. but i can't help it.. at that moment, i blame him for persuading me and myself for being so soft...

things had happened and what's happened cannot be undone.... we are together... as a couple, we should be working things out together and sharing both ups and downs, and not just happiness... he brought colors back into my life and shower me love and every other things... he's all that i need.. shouldn't i just focus on the present and work on the future rather then be so negative?

some things happen for a reason... i have no **cking idea why that happen.. i love it when i realise it.. but i hate it when i can't do what i want to do...

some times i just can't help but think if "that" is a push or pull factor....

if it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger....

if i could turn back the hands of the clock.. will my decision remains the same??

during a conversation just now, someone mention something that i had put at the back of my mind.. but it was never forgotten.. swear...who will ever forget when it's so dear to you....

i cried hard.. i felt bad... more guilty then ever..

i blame myself for it... i hate that decision... but can it ever be undone? i wish my option was the other at that point of time.. but i was being persuaded and convince that it will be better if i choose the other option... i persuaded myself that yes it will be better.. being logical makes me unable to follow my heart...

regret? yes.. extremely.. absolutely... i had sinned....

life goes on... but that feeling will forever remains.. pls forgive me... pls...

if it should ever happen again, my decision will not be that anymore... i will follow my heart and stick with it....

i sincerely pray and hope god will........

The Seven Commandments for a Happy Marriage

Although there is no secret recipe for a happily ever after, there are some rules which can give your marriage a fighting chance at success, so listed below are seven, simple, yet effective points that can help strengthen your marriage; 1. Pride goes before a fall - Just as the age-old adage goes, where your relationship is concerned you should put aside your pride and instead, focus on solving the problem in an unbiased way. Marriage is not about who is right or wrong, it's not a competition, its more important than that, and very often we tend to overlook its significance by getting side tracked by inconsequential matters. 2. Make up before the day ends - Constructive fighting is good for any relationship, as it helps your relationship grow and clarify differences. However, it is important not to go to bed before making up. By delaying resolving the problem, all you are doing is causing the resentment to fester and get worse, therefore, no matter how angry you may be, make the effort to solve the problem before either of you hit the sack. 3. Say you are sorry when you are wrong - If you are in the wrong, swallow that pride and admit it, no good will come about if you don?. Be mature and show your partner that even though you are mad, embarrassed and filled to the brim with pride, you are still willing to put all that aside to make the relationship work. 4. Talk, share and get connected - Remember how you used to tell your partner everything that went on in your life? Well, don? stop. By sharing your thoughts, experiences and feelings with each other, you are building a bond between yourselves. The key to a successful marriage is a strong friendship, so go head and be friends again. 5. If it's going to hurt, bite your tongue - If what you are going to say will cause unnecessary hurt, just bite your tongue. Constructive criticism is good, but destructive criticism which is fuelled by spite and pettiness will just erode your relationship and causes more harm than good, so ask yourself, what your objective is before you utter those spiteful words. 6. Save the criticism for when you get home - Suppress your desire to lash out at your partner in public or to others. Show him / her, the respect they deserve by saving the tongue lashing for when you get home. Airing your dirty laundry to others would result in your partner losing face. Remember your vows, to 'cherish each other for better or for worse', well remember them whenever you are filled with desire to rant. 7. Have a little love - Having sex frequently releases endorphins, burns calories and reduces stress. It also helps you to get closer to each other. So make the time for a quick romp or if time is really a constraint, then some heavy petting would also suffice. :)

oh yippee!!! finally construction have commence for our house at Damai Grove!!

http://www.punggol.org/news/september07.htm

http://www.punggol.org/forum/index.php/topic,2658.0.html

now i can't wait....

Darling.. it's our house... the place where we are going to start a family and begin our second phase of life.. =)