missing is a powerful emotion..

how true??

why guys like girls

1
They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo

2.
The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder

3.
How cute they look when they sleep

4.
The ease in which they fit into our arms

5.
The way they kiss you and
all of a sudden everything
is right in the world

6.
How cute they are when they eat

7.
The way they take hours
to get dressed
but in the end
it makes it all worth while

8.
Because they are always
warm even when its minus 30 outside

9.
The way they look good
no matter what they wear

10.
The way they fish for compliments
even though you both know that you
think she's the most
beautiful thing on this earth

11.
How cute they are when they argue

12.
The way her hand always finds yours

13.
The way they smile

14.
The way you feel
when you see their name
on the call ID
after you just had a big fight

15.
The way she says
"lets not fight anymore"
even though you know that
an hour later....

16.
The way they kiss when
you do something nice for them

17.
The way they kiss you
when you say
"I love you"

18.
Actually ...
just the way they kiss you...

19.
The way they fall into your arms
when they cry

20.
Then the way they apologize
for crying over something that silly

21.
The way they hit you
and expect it to hurt

22.
Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt.
(even though we don't admit it)!

23.
The way they say
"I miss you"

24.
The way you miss them

25.
The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or
know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to
the depths of their souls
and
you say a million things
without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beatings
of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.

that's how lovely we girls are.. guys.. get it? keke

in love with..

You Are Special
by Max Lucado

The Wemmicks were small wooden people. Each of the wooden people was carved by a woodworker named Eli. His workshop sat on a hill overlooking their village. Every Wemmick was different. Some had big noses, others had large eyes. Some were tall and others were short. Some wore hats, others wore coats. But all were made by the same carver and all lived in the village. And all day, every day, the Wemmicks did the same thing: They gave each other stickers. Each Wemmick had a box of golden star stickers and a box of gray dot stickers. Up and down the streets all over the city, people could be seen sticking stars or dots on one another.

The pretty ones, those with smooth wood and fine paint, always got stars. But if the wood was rough or the paint chipped, the Wemmicks gave dots. The talented ones got stars, too. Some could lift big sticks high above their heads or jump over tall boxes. Still others knew big words or could sing very pretty songs. Everyone gave them stars.

Some Wemmicks had stars all over them! Every time they got a star it made them feel so good that they did something else and got another star. Others, though, could do little. They got dots.

Punchinello was one of these. He tried to jump high like the others, but he always fell. And when he fell, the others would gather around and give him dots.

Sometimes when he fell, it would scar his wood, so the people would give him more dots. He would try to explain why he fell and say something silly, and the Wemmicks would give him more dots. After a while he had so many dots that he didn't want to go outside. He was afraid he would do something dumb such as forget his hat or step in the water, and then people would give him another dot. In fact, he had so many gray dots that some people would come up and give him one without reason. "He deserves lots of dots," the wooden people would agree with one another. "He's not a good wooden person."

After a while Punchinello believed them. "I'm not a good Wemmick," he would say. The few times he went outside, he hung around other Wemmicks who had a lot of dots. He felt better around them.

One day he met a Wemmick who was unlike any he'd ever met. She had no dots or stars. She was just wooden. Her name was Lucia. It wasn't that people didn't try to give her stickers; it's just that the stickers didn't stick. Some admired Lucia for having no dots, so they would run up and give her a star. But it would fall off. Some would look down on her for having no stars, so they would give her a dot. But it wouldn't stay either. 'That's the way I want to be,'thought Punchinello. 'I don't want anyone's marks.' So he asked the stickerless Wemmick how she did it. "It's easy," Lucia replied. "every day I go see Eli."

"Eli?" "Yes, Eli. The woodcarver. I sit in the workshop with him." "Why?" "Why don't you find out for yourself? Go up the hill. He's there."

And with that the Wemmick with no marks turned and skipped away. "But he won't want to see me!" Punchinello cried out. Lucia didn't hear. So Punchinello went home. He sat near a window and watched the wooden people as they scurried around giving each other stars and dots. "It's not right," he muttered to himself. And he resolved to go see Eli. He walked up the narrow path to the top of the hill and stepped into the big shop. His wooden eyes widened at the size of everything. The stool was as tall as he was. He had to stretch on his tiptoes to see the top of the workbench. A hammer was as long as his arm. Punchinello swallowed hard. "I'm not staying here!" and he turned to leave. Then he heard his name.

"Punchinello?" The voice was deep and strong. Punchinello stopped. "Punchinello! How good to see you. Come and let me have a look at you." Punchinello turned slowly and looked at the large bearded craftsman. "You know my name?" the little Wemmick asked.

"Of course I do. I made you." Eli stooped down and picked him up and set him on the bench. "Hmm," the maker spoke thoughtfully as he inspected the gray circles. "Looks like you've been given some bad marks." "I didn't mean to, Eli. I really tried hard." "Oh, you don't have to defend yourself to me, child. I don't care what the other Wemmicks think." "You don't?"

No, and you shouldn't either. Who are they to give stars or dots?
They're Wemmicks just like you. What they think doesn't matter, Punchinello. All that matters is what I think. And I think you are pretty special."
Punchinello laughed. "Me, special? Why? I can't walk fast. I can't jump. My paint is peeling. Why do I matter to you?"

Eli looked at Punchinello, put his hands on those small wooden shoulders, and spoke very slowly. "Because you're mine. That's why you matter to me."
Punchinello had never had anyone look at him like this--much less his maker. He didn't know what to say.
"Every day I've been hoping you'd come," Eli explained.
"I came because I met someone who had no marks."
"I know. She told me about you."
"Why don't the stickers stay on her?"
"Because she has decided that what I think is more important than what they think. The stickers only stick if you let them."

"What?"
"The stickers only stick if they matter to you. The more you trust my love, the less you care about the stickers."
"I'm not sure I understand."
"You will, but it will take time. You've got a lot of marks. For now, just come to see me every day and let me remind you how much I care." Eli lifted Punchinello off the bench and set him on the ground. "Remember," Eli said as the Wemmick walked out the door. "You are special because I made you. And I don't make mistakes."

Punchinello didn't stop, but in his heart he thought, "I think he really means it."
And when he did, a dot fell to the ground.

May all your dots fall silently to the ground, for if given by man, they matter only to other men, if given by the Gods, no one questions, the scars that make up our lives. (when given the choice, pass out stars, drop the dots in the trash.)

heard this from my lecturer and i found the story on the net cos i love this so much.. almost cried when i heard this story as i can really feel it...

we shouldn't allow, accept and take it to heart about other's negative comment about ourself.. who are they? they are just the same as you and i... why should we take it to heart? the more we mind the more unhappy we will be.. we should always bear in mind that no matter what there will always be someone out there who love you and care for you unconditionally.. and we should always keep in mind that no one is perfect and each and everyone of us are special and useful in our very own way...

jzu sweet..

左手邊

风吹过蓝天在下雨之间
云能飞多远
爱它偶尔很甜偶尔也很咸
我已经体验
我们来回的悠闲
有一些已经不见这些年 oh


hey 你说的明天是一种信念
还是封信件
对爱不是阴天也不是明天
它好难分辨
可是我的心里面
有种感觉很特别没人了解



我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险
我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边


hey 你说的明天是一种信念

Hey 还是封信件
对爱不是阴天也不是明天
它好难分辨
可是我的心里面
有种感觉很特别没人了解

我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险
我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边


wu 无声的冒险
我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险
我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边


左手边

if only...

if only........

my course don't have so many assignments....

it's not so intensive......

i have more time on my own....

i am doing a job that i love.....

i don't have to worry about $......

everyone close to me live in harmony and considerate to each other's feelings.....

i am happy everyday.....

i don't get fat regardless what i eat.....

i am smart enough.....

i would....

enjoy the course more....

have more time of my own....

can spent my time accompanying my love ones and doing the things that i like....

i won't be late, feel bored and i will be much more happy....

i can get my dream house, wedding and honeymoon....

i will have a happy family...

i will be a person without worries and anger....

i can get to enjoy all the good food in the world and only exercise for fun and my own health..

i will get through all my exams and solve all my problems easily....


if only............

beginning the year with..

this blog was started because my BO went for a company trip and i was being left in sg (no choice) and i miss him... now he begin the year with reservist... not 1 week, not 2 weeks but 3 and half weeks... and therefore, here i am again.... arughhhhh!!!!!!!! =(

the first day----> i miss him like crazy, woke up at 530am trying to call him and just listen to his voice before he drive off... 7am - 730am, hold on to my phone half sleeping half awake cos he say he will call me when he reach camp... 732am my phone ring and i was halfway brushing my teeth, quickly rinse my mouth and pick up the call, finally i hear his voice, so chirpy and lively immediately i feel so happy... throughout the day i don't feel like doing anything, i just want to stay at home and think everything about him, his hug, his kiss, his words, his actions, suddenly just miss him so terribly much.... tears fill up my eyes, almost cry in office (i know i'm being silly and exaggerating cos he only went back to reservist it's not as if he's fighting a battle or not coming back or what but i just miss him and want to see him)

the reality --> i need him, want him.......

this is the second day... feeling better but still missing him terribly....

still remember 2 nights before he went back to camp, lying on the bed, he sang to me and said some real sweet things... reali sweet and touches my heart so much that i cried.. wish the time can stop at that moment with him hugging me, looking in my eyes while singing... and at that time, that was all i need... him..

"Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever"

love it when----

i see him the moment i open my eyes in the morning...

he say good morning darling and kiss me on my lips.....

both of us are snatching the mirror to get prepared....

kissing and resting my head on his shoulder when he's warming up his car.....

holding my hand throughout the journey..........

dropping me off at my workplace, kiss and hug me goodbye.........

wave to me before he drive off......

calling me as and when and telling me he love me and misses me....

letting me know where he's going even though i never question him....

cooking the dishes that i like to eat....

washing up cos he knows that i hate washing....

the excitement in us when we are applying for our "love nest"....

looking around for my ring ........

he call me silly baby.....

i miss him..

i love him and i hope to spent the rest of life happily with him... =)


hope his reservist will be over soon...

oUr holidaY... juz the 2 of us..

2007 over just like that.... make a few major decisions this year hope i will be better...

went to krabi for Christmas and the trip is my present! Oh i also have a surprise gift, a precious moment figurine.

was kinda excited for the trip...

it's the first time that...

while waiting....

i go on a holiday when there's only me and him =)

i travel by plane (alright i know i'm sua ku)....................

the moment we touch down we try to look for currency exchange but it was too late and all of them are close and we don't have a single thai baht on hand all thanks to Mr. Tan who say we can do it at the krabi airport.... in the end he have no choice but to withdraw from the ATM and then we take a cab to the resort... it was getting late and i actually fell asleep during the ride to the resort.. keke (as usual, he's the one awake and looking out) the first thing we wanted to look for when we reach there is actually food cos both of us were famished but still we decide to look for the tour for tomorrow. After walking for a while and checking out we decide to go with the tour just outside our resort. After placing our booking we walk opposite to have our late dinner.. keke

as usual his all time favorite; fried spring roll.... follow by phai thai and coconut drinks~

the ambiance --- not too bad

the food ---- average

the price --- reasonable

verdict ---- can try.... lol

after dinner we went back to the hotel shower and sleep.... it was nice hugging together and rolling about on the big big bed.. haha

our first day of trip.....

sea tour!! went island hopping... visited phi phi, maya and many more..

the view was great! the sea so clear, gorgeous and amazing! you will never see those kind of sea in Singapore~~

he went for scuba diving and i refuse to go cos i don't have "an quan gan" as my feet is hanging in the "sea" .. but i did tried for those that my feet are not hanging... haha

the tour guide was kinda pushy.. cos she kept asking us for tips but never mind overall she's still not too bad =) went back to the hotel, took a shower and started planning what to eat and buy for our family and friends....


our breakfast by the pool is actually erm... not reali by the pool but near to the pool haha.. the breakfast was alright, toast bread, scrambled eggs, bacon, hot dogs and you can have coffee, tea or juices.. Oh they also have fresh fruits... overall not too bad...

our second day, we went for the land tour..

the tour guide was cute and friendly~ he brought his daughter along! the girl is very lovely and lively... she's really adorable.. i think she can be the future tour guide! keke

we went for the natural waterfall hot spring... it was so good! but cannot stay in too long else also become bad for your health...


followed by the emerald pool... before we reach there we have to walk a long long way in.. the torture before the enjoyment.. haha .. when we reach there... wah! the pool is reali emerald in color.. we were so amazed and we look out for their description.. end up it's actualli bacteria plus afew other things.... but it was amazing cos we can also see fishes in there.. keke head for lunch after all this....

lunch was fried rice, tom yum soup, chix with cashew nuts and coke! keke not too bad...

After lunch me n my BO went for a walk around there, and we saw people bbqing eggs! keke wonder how it taste....

we also see rubber plantation..
just a mini one we think...

darling obsession with tortoise...

next is a long long long ride to the tigercave and the forest to see the thousand year old tree... we all fell asleep during the ride... wasted... too full after lunch wahahaha!

it was reali a land tour cos we have to walk so long distance and climb so many stairs.. horrible! but good exercise keke, went for a walk in the forest and saw many caves, the limestone forming.. more of the "natural" side... then finally back to our hotel for shower and a good rest...

we went to catch the sunset.. it was reali different... the feeling is different.. simply amazing...

holding hands, strolling down the beach ( i wonder will he still hold my hands and walk down the streets or the beach 30yrs or 40yrs down the road, when both our hair turns white)... feel so romantic.. of cos the sudden pop of the usual question and there's no reason for me to reject but it will be perfect if there something else.. heehee

i wanted to have seafood but erm... i was turn off by the flies flying above the food, in the end we switch to roadside stalls but it was good! =D anything pleases me as long as it's good!


we went for massage and shopping.. we bargain like crazy, not so sure whether is it Ok after bargaining but i think should be reasonable.. need to check with BO even thought it's me who is keeping the $$ but i don't know how much i spent (horrible rite)... haha

on our last day, we went to krabi town. bad experience! nothing on the street and it was extreme hot! we went to the departmental store and the things were expensive.. no point! then we saw KFC! it was cheaper (i think ) and they serve some food that is not selling in SG so we decide to eat a bit there and i love the glass there!

we walk around the town but sad to say that there's nothing interesting there =( then we head back to our hotel bath, rest awhile and start shopping again haha we wanted to have something nice for dinner and start searching for a nice and reasonably price restaurant.. and we found one =)

during dinner, me and him went over to the beach to and take pictures of the sunset.. it was beautiful and different from yesterday! really really pretty~

then it was time to head to the airport back to SG... time fly when you are enjoying.. so fast our 4d3n holiday is over...

haiz feel horrible when i was on the plane... (onli my BO knows why) anyway now i'm fine and i'm glad.. over this period of time i never regretted my decision, probably at times i might feel a bit upset but i'm thankful for those love ones and friends who was beside me throughout that period.. Especially my BO.. poor him.. have to take care of me.. so thankful that i have him =D everywhere is fun as long as he is beside me =

just love his company =D