tired...

I'm burned out.... and i wish i have 48hrs a day instead of 24hrs...


i need more time for my own personal stuffs, my love ones, my school's assignment, exam, my friends, my family, my beauty sleep, etc....


everything is about time management, maybe I'm juz not good at time planning.. bUt how can i squeeze in so many thing? someone help me please!



I'm tired and i want to be enjoying everyday to the maximum.. n not having the feeling of not enough time to do my things... i'm exhausted..


i love all the things that I'm doing now definitely but somehow just wish i have more time...



time, time, time, i just want more time....

be appreciative??

have i tried my best?? i don't think i did so.. feel so terrible now... my exam... etc....

a couple of other incidents that happened make me feel even worse...

everyone have a past, of course i understand that... but some things just can't be let go or live with it so easily... it's just human nature... lotsa time are required... sometimes by not saying it doesn't mean that someone don't want to share, probably she is just trying to get over by herself and not involving the other party.. i mean 1 party upset is better then 2, is that wrong of me to think that?

my friend said this to me 'sometimes e past is not for u to forgot. but at the same time u have to rem what u have now'..

the past are your memories, you can't possibly detached it away from you..

i know what i have now and i feel bless and fortunate... i'm glad and i do appreciate it but a part in me is destroying whatever that i have and i hate that part of me.. and all cos of that, it seems that i'm not appreciative of whatever that had been showered on me but i can't blame anyone, cos' it's me, it's my own fault....

i wish i can forget about whatever that happened and be back my usual self.. it's just so not me.. can't smile, can't laugh.. can't even communicate... but at the same time i still cannot forget..

but i know that it's just a matter of time...

simple wants...

went grocery shopping on both sat and sun alone.. weather is so hot and make me feel that the things that i bought which is not alot to be so much more heavier....

if onli a man is here..

if only i have a license den i can drive his car for grocery shopping.... =(

At home lazing around then finally decided to mend his trousers and iron his shirt after finishing my show haha .....

feel so weird making the cake alone.. much more work.. and cannot say 'darling can you help me to boil the water, darling can you help me to mix the mixture..' tat's y it took abit longer for me to finish making the tiramisu...

Sunday early noon start to wash, cut , prepare and cook his dinner... and that's when i realise i don't mind staying home to cook, i don't mind doing the household chores, i don't mind staying at home and wait for him to be back home... i love kids , i love to bake, i love my SO , i love my home to be neat and tidy and i love to see the smile on my SO when he came home and saw the meal prepared by me... every time... nv once did it fail... the only thing i hate is washing dishes... arugh... just hate it.. if i ever hire a maid for my future house, her job will only be washing the dishes n clothes...

i realise i'm just a simple ger in pursuit of simple happiness that's all...

again... and again.... and again...

my boy went fishing without me.....




again... =(




trying to wake up as late as possible so that the waiting time will be shorter.....





again....






alone at his place....





again...





eating with his family without him....





again.....






watching tv shows alone......





again.....






doing my assignment in his room alone....





again...





looking at the time hoping the time can pass faster best will be 7pm.....






again....







looking out the window hoping to see him and his car....






again.....






all this will come in a few days time again.... sUCkS.. =(